beauty...

in Bb.

http://inbflat.net/

winter comes

winter comes and brings
a cold calmness

while the natural world goes to sleep
we fight the darkness with caffeinated warmth

red and green expectations bring
awkwardness and false generosity

fighting urges of hibernation
and nostalgia for the ghosts of lifetimes past

as the silver ball drops
we examine life and instigate changes

from the bundle of fleece blankets and earl grey fog
longing for the birth of spring with all its newness

overlooking the present
neglecting the beauty of still life

forgetting the Now deserves
more credit than i give the future

losing people.
losing time.
losing connections.

life moves so quickly in so many different directions and i am continually disappointed when i can't follow more than one path at a time.

i miss those people.
i miss those times.
i miss those connections.

i can't always satisfy everyone else. but i can't seem to feel satisfied myself if i don't.

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having a down moment. starting year eleven of "higher education" today...

crisp mornings haunted by shadows being chased away by early sun
a cool breeze bouncing off old stone buildings
the warm aromas of baking bread and espresso

this feeling i miss most about europe...

americans got mornings all wrong.




i have three of the busiest weeks of my life starting right now, and yet, i'm oddly calm and pleasantly happy. it's a nice change.

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Whoever can see through all fear
will always be safe.

"you can't deal with my infinite nature, can you?"

-i <3 huckabees

expectations are a bitch.